I'm scared. I don't use that word lightly, but I am truly scared of myself. I'm mildly paranoid and schizophrenic and I'm suicidal and anorexic and have had two emotionally abusive and sexually abusive partners. That seems like a lot but mainly what I'm worried about is my partner. They keep talking about forever and how much they love me and the voices in my head keep asking how many people they've told these things too and how much and telling me that they're lying and I really love them but I don't know how to get over it... I'm currently in a long distance relationship with them and I'm terrified that I'll be dead before I get to see them again (I've already attempted once without them knowing) and while I trust them completely the other parts of me and the voices don't and I just don't know what to do. If you could help I would really appreciate it. Thank you. -Levi

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